Mcbealism

Yes I'm out of the hiatus. But then again, I never really took a break. Many things happened - A newfound career, which could potentially be my calling after all, and then, and then, nothing much else.

Maybe it's because I have nothing interesting to write about, or that I've just been thinking about a different direction I might go with the blogging. Well they've all been random thoughts, and random is good.

I've been to Indonesia lately for work, and it was the first time I felt I've finally became a working adult.

But this entry is not going to be about that.

I bought the entire collection of Ally Mcbeal (all 5 seasons, thank you pirates) and happily think I'm in for a good reminiscence, remembering how much I've enjoyed the series many years ago.

Starting from the pilot, all the main characters came back into my mind while I was watching it. John Cage and his frog, Richard Fish and his fetish for wattles, Elaine's annoying staple in every single episode, her eavesdropping into any office conversation, Ling's 'deathly' stare, Billy's indecisiveness and of course Ally's eccentricity and her highly imaginative fantasies.

I'm stalled at Season Two at the moment and there's no deny that there are several gem episodes that I can never forget - the boy who tried to sue God; the man who saw the unicorn and the tie-in episode with the cast from The Practice.

Just something bugs me. Perhaps it was how bitter i felt when Ally couldn't decide between Billy and Greg. Or that she rejected a good-natured rabbi just because she doesn't want to try to find the connection. Or that she was constantly imagining the worst of all the good men she met. Like the guy with the salad sauce - ridiculous. And she claims she's alone. That annoys me. It wouldn't have been the case few years back. Now I think she's just a dumb, narcissistic, indecisive weakling who has not and never will find love, when all the while, she has been loved.

But maybe it's just about me. We are similar, in the same chronic manner.

I think, it's possible my heart cannot be broken.